Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in carrie_barrie6's LiveJournal:

Friday, July 1st, 2005
1:41 pm	All My Anger Out On You Bastard Date Written: June 18th, 2005 --- I can’t believe you’d do that.. Behind my back, you hit on my best friend.. Well, best friend my ass, now my enemy.. You both should know better you jackass.. Me n you were all over each other.. Everywhere.. Why would you think of even doing that? After what went on this past month almost two? We just recently hung out this week.. Oh my God what the fuck.. Even after what we’ve been through.. Never thought about it did you? You said “nope we’re NOTHING” That’s not what you fucking said couple days ago.. You called me drunk “oh Carrie I love you so much” “But I’m afraid to start a relationship because I don’t wanna hurt you” Too fucking bad, you jus did it you little shitface.. Did you even care about me? From all these damn tears that I’ve cried for you.. I hope you drown in them.. I’ll watch you with pleasure.. I can’t stand you lying to me.. Your words are bullshit.. Same with her.. All this anger.. I just wanna shout! I CAN’T HOLD IT IN ANY LONGER.. All this shit you turned on me.. I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE! I’M BEGINNING TO HATE YOU! Why does it even matter to me? Why would I waste my tears on you? Not to mention AGAIN.. I’m so messed up inside.. All because of you AND HER.. WHAT THE FUCK?! What’d I do to deserve this? Was it because you want fucking payback? Tell me now or never, you’ve done nothing but destroy my feelings for you.. Since the day you came back to me.. I’m glad you’re finally fucking gone.. I can get better and I am way better off without you.. You’re a fucking jerk.. I hope you rot in hell.. You broke my heart in two.. Why the hell her? She’s now a fucking skank.. Just like you.. Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
1:39 pm	It's All Piecing Together Date Written: --- You think it's easy to hide Your feelings about a guy deep inside I'd hope and pray Things would go back to the old days I thought everything was going blue 'Til one day it seemed untrue He was so sweet to me I thought all those things he said to me weren't meant to be I can't believe this is going so well I wonder if he can tell I'm beginning to be so happy now I'm so shocked...wow I gotta keep it real Try not to make it a big deal I can hear his sighs I try not to look into his big brown eyes It started with bands Then holding his hands Getting all hot Wondering if he is or not Making the first move I know, I’m surprised too Feeling his lips on mine It’s been such a long time Going so great, I didn’t want to let him go End of the night, oh no I wish I could tell him what I feel inside But I'm afraid of what he'll say, how he'll act on the outside Thought about him all that night Not wanting to turn off my light It’s the next day Speechless and don’t know what to say Hesitant to admit my feelings inside But I can't hide (them no longer) Don't tell me you love me if your not sincere For that lie can bring me a new fear and tear Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
1:34 pm	What Would Happen... Date Written: --- What would happen if I talked to you? Would you carry on the conversation or look around & nod your head while looking for your friends... What would happen if I held your hand? Would you grin & pull me closer or walk away & pick your nose... What would happen if I hugged you? Would you hold me firmly & close or pull away... What would happen if I kissed you? Would you kiss me back or say, “To fast.”... What would happen if I smiled at you? Would you smile back & wink or give me a weird look & wave oddly... What would happen if I stared at you? Would you give me a big smile or look at me like I’m some freak... What would happen if I called you late at night? Would you talk to me ‘til dawn or tell me, “It’s too late.”... What would happen if I cried? Would you hold me close & make me laugh or just say “It’ll be ok.”... What would happen if I cheered you up? Would you agree with what I said or get mad & tell me I’m wrong... What would happen if I skipped school for you? Would you accept I left to see you because I miss you too much or order me to go back at once... What would happen if I showed up at your house? Would you invite me in or tell me, “It’s a bad time.”... What would happen if I wanted more? Would you give me what I want...you... Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)
1:33 pm	A Guy I Met Date Written: --- You are friendly, kind and caring, Sensitive, flirty and understanding. Humorous, fun, secure and true, Yes that's you. You're one of a kind, different from others, Generous, charming, but not one that smothers. Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game, But not just another... in the long chain. Unique, not boring, exciting and wise, Truthful and helpful, with yer eyes. Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright, Not one bit of spite. When I seen you, My face lit up with happiness. When we talk, I can feel the load unload, With soothing words from you. We are friends from far away, When we talk we always have something to say. Our lives so different yet the same, Every night we play the game. You showed me so many things, I started to dream of you every other night, You melted the coldness in my heart, with the warmth of your light. I ended up falling for you, how could I not?, Even thinking of you makes my soul hot. I knew your dreams because we talk, For hours at a time. We talk about our day, I always wonder if there's more to say. I think of your words, Your thoughts and your voice. In my heart are feelings that I can not explain, But the words that come to mind are so simple and plain. I ache for your touch, I long for your tender embrace. I want to feel that one kiss, To feel you holding me. To know the feeling of your lips against mine, To know your heart beats in time with mine. I want to know if you care.. For you, I would gladly walk a mile, If that would give me a chance to see you smile. If I spoke what's on my mind, Would you accept it or take it the wrong way? Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
12:40 am	Breaking Away From It Date Written: --- Love and pain, both in my heart, Tears and smiles decorate like art. Memories of what we had together, Will remain always and forever. We might as well be strangers in another town, But if I see you, I’ll be wearing a frown. How can you pass by and act as if there was never anything between us, You remember it, you must.   I don’t know your face no more, Or feel the touch, that I adore. My friends say, “You should move on, you better.”, But I want the one I miss and that’s why I’m writing this poem and letter.   I do love you still, and when I see you with her my hear shatters and tears, Again and again, more and more. I thought you should know that my love has not died, It was not put out by all the tears that I’ve cried.   You may not want to take me back, I should know that for a fact. Without you I must go and save the rest of my pride, I have a strong feeling this trail will be a tough ride.   I have a feeling I’ll ride it alone, But because of this I have grown. I’m trying so hard to run away, There’s no possible way.   I keep hearing these things, People just tell me to spread my wings. I don’t want to believe (it), I just wanna leave.   On my string, I’ve stopped at a knot, You have no idea, I’ve changed a lot. I feel like I’m gonna snap, Since now between us there’s a big gap.   Since you both became a pair, I’m leaving that gap right there. I know now that I can walk alone for sure, It’ll take a while but simple and pure.   I don’t know if I can go on with this year without you, It sounds dumb, but it’s true. I can’t help what I feel, Just want it to seal (itself). Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
12:23 am	My Heart Poured Out Date Written: Feb 26, 2005 --- I really don't know what to say All I do is think all day I believed you, I really thought we'd get back together To me, it seems like you think I'm just a piece of teather Like I'm nothing but another ex-girlfriend And now it's completely the end I want to let you go But you don't know how hard it is to do so You seem to have forgotten we ever went out But that's all I ever thought about You made a difference in my life Maybe to you it was a syke I really thought we truly liked each other Now it's like you don't want to bother I had my first excellent relationship I just treated it like shit You have no idea how hard it is I can't believe I risked this I want to move on so bad But everytime I think about, I get mad and sad Mad that you went to the same stupid rack Sad I won't be able to get you back So I guess I now give you props For the girl that you just dropt You say to me, "Yes, we'll be together sometime soon" Well then I see you with that ugly ass goon Then I think to myself, "What is it that he wants?" I'm so confused that it haunts I don't even know why the fuck I'm doing this It'll just got me more pissed I've been holding on for more then a month now You're probably wondering how I feel your making me wait for the hell of it Truth is, I hate it every bit You tore me apart You also took one thing I wanted, my heart My friends noticed I was so happy with you You already know who People thought we were cute together I thought it'd be you and me forever I like you so much Believe me, it's a bunch I never got 'poem crazy' before I guess what triggered it was some stupid whore She throws it in my face Which makes me feel out of place I never spent time to write a poem for any guy Now you're probably wondering why My last words aren't going to rhyme Please believe me when I say that I miss you Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)